Feeling OK

I finally got there. Today I felt OK. I mean I'm still dealing with this back pain and some anxiety from my injury case, but overall today was good. Yesterday, I mustered up enough energy to declutter my side of the bedroom. Mostly just getting laundry organized and some dusting. I found a journal that I wrote in for some of the 10 days that I spent in Israel a couple years back (that journey is definitely another post!). What I wrote in it reminded me of my time there and that I was pretty healthy for the most part and that I climbed a freakin' mountain! It was pretty motivating I guess. I know that I will get back to the healthy Kim again.

Smiling after climbing Mt. Masada, Israel (2010)



I also dusted off a collection of pictures I have of loved ones on my Dad's side of the family that have passed away. I'm a strong beleiver in "the other side" and know that they are looking over me and helping guide me through life. My dad had 5 sisters (he was the only boy!) and 4 of them passed away. My Aunt Esther (my Dad's twin) passed away this past May and I spent time with her while she was in Hospice. My other Aunts had passed away when I was a child so I don't really remember a lot. I held my Aunt Esther's hand and told her it was okay to let go. It was one of the hardest and most difficult things I think I have ever gone through. I miss her so much. Even in her last breaths she made me promise her that I wouldn't leave her and that I loved her. Those dusty pictures brought up a lot of those memories. It also reminded me that I have them with me and that I'm going to get through this difficult time in my life.

My beautiful Aunt Esther
(she hated to take pictures so I don't have any recent ones but this is probably how she would like to be remembered) :)

 

So with all that randomness that yesterday was, it really helped me get through today. My bedroom is less cluttered, my heart is full of memories of past adventures and loved ones, and I finally completed a document from my injury case that has been looming over me.

Tomorrow, I plan on visiting with my Dad for a little and getting through some of that laundry that I bagged up yesterday! I'm so thankful for my husband who takes me wherever I please and helps me do my laundry. I love him. <3

I hope you had an OK day! ;)