A Fresh Start

I've decided today that whatever happens with my life I will look at it from a new perspective.

I've been able to text and talk to Wan daily and that definitely has been helping me feel less lost in this whole thing.

So today I'm going to start fresh. I'm going to start blogging about things that I truly enjoy talking about and stop sharing all my drama with you all. As much as it helps me to write it out, I know that airing out all my "personal" laundry may not be the best for me or my husband. I will still be updating things about my husband, especially when he comes home! Yay!

This past weekend I went out shopping for some dresses to wear when my husband comes home. Wan and I are very into the retro style and love going out to rockabilly shows and having fun at some of our cities retro hangouts. So here are the two amazing dresses I got that I feel so wonderful in!

 The dress I'm wearing on the day he comes home!
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The "just because" dress
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I'm so excited to get all dolled up for my man and feel that sigh of relief once he's back home in my arms. <3

So this is the last week I'll be living in the apartment with the noisy neighbor! Yay! I'm getting the keys for our new unit in the building on Friday. I'm looking forward to finally unpacking everything and getting settled in. I've also made sure that there are no noisy neighbors around! It'll be nice for Wan to come home to some peace and quiet.

With this new place comes new adventures and a feeling of renewal. I plan on cooking and baking a lot more here (in the old place I've only cooked once on my stove!). I want to bake lots of comfort food like filled pastries, cakes, cookies and many more yummy savory melt-in-your-mouth goodness! I love the smell of baked goods in a house, it makes it feel like a home.

The hubby and I also plan on buying a new couch, tv and KING size bed! We definitely need a King bed and I know it will bring us many nights of peaceful comfort :).

I'm going to also catch up on lots of reading. I love books! I love the feel of them, the smell of them and the comfort of just settling in on the couch with some good entertainment. I've purchased a couple books this past month that I want to read...but first, I MUST finish Twilight's Breaking Dawn. I've been so bad about this book that I need to finish it before the movie comes out. I think I'm going to start on it tonight, hopefully I can finish it soon. Next I want to read Water for Elephants and Horse Soldiers.

It's time to focus on myself a little and stop feeling sorry for myself! I have it so much better than some and I need to be grateful for this life I have. Hoping for good news with my husband soon and an all around better look through these eyes.

Where I Left Off

It's been quite some time since I've posted anything here. Not that I've forgotten, this journey has been a non-stop roller coaster since my husband left. Honestly, I don't know where to start or how much I should share. I guess I'll start where I left off with some of the milestones...

Once Wan got to basic I was able to settle in to things pretty quickly. His company got a Facebook page so I was able to see pictures and connect with the family members pretty easily.
I was looking for our first place together as a married couple. I could not find anything that was in our budget! This just added to the frustration and stress I was experiencing. I kept a lot of this from my husband for a while because I didn't want him to worry or get distracted from his training. I was finally able to find an affordable place in our budget and moved in June 1st! I was so happy and thought things were finally going to settle into place...

Night one at the apartment I noticed my bedroom wall was against my neighbors living room. He's a young guy who LOVES loud rap music! It was horrible, I ended up sleeping in the living room for quite some time after too many confrontations with him to the point that I'm scared of him. It's a horrible situation that I hope to never find myself in again. Thankfully we just got approved for another unit and are set to move in September 1st!

Like I said...my life is a roller coaster!

Along with the stress of Wan being gone and the apartment, I found myself having severe side effects to the cortisone injections I got to treat my back pain. It made my Cortisol Hormone (manages metabolism, stress, etc.) sky rocket so bad that I was crying ALL the time! I thought I was going crazy because I could not control my crying. It was embarrassing and affected my work and social life a lot. Thankfully my doctor was able to treat it and my supervisor's at work were very understanding.

I decided to tell my husband what was going on and I'm glad I did. He was very supportive and did his best to give me comfort and kind words. He's so amazing. I'm very luck to have married my best friend. His training is going great and we are only a little ways away from being together again! It's been a long 6+ months and I am so ready for him to be back home.

My husband has lost over 50lbs while at FLW and I am so proud of him!

My handsome man <3

I know it's hard to include what's been going on in my life the past 6 months but I hope this has shed some light on this crazy ride I'm on. I am so blessed and grateful for these experiences and I know I will learn so much from all of this.

I can't wait to be back with my husband again and continue on this journey...through these eyes ;)