It's not goodbye...

I just got the call...the scripted call telling me that he arrived safely and will call me when he can. These past few days have been hard. I didn't actually cry until last night when we left the hotel he was staying at...this is the first time in years that we have been apart. 5 months is a long time without your other half. So many women before me have done this and I know I'll get through it. It'll just be some getting used to and changing the habit of knowing he will always be there (literally).

I talked to him on the phone all day today, when he was at LAX to when he got to St. Louis. I even got to talk to him on the 2 hour bus ride to FLW. He texted me right before he got there so I was prepared to receive that call. This is so surreal. I cant believe he is there. We have been expecting this for months now and talking about all our plans and for it to be actually happening is a little overwhelming.

I swear to you, I fall in love with him more and more everyday. He makes me a better person and I am so proud to stand by his side. I asked him to see if he can take a picture of him wearing his ACU's. I can't wait to see him in that uniform! Cliche I know, but I always wanted to be with a man in uniform. That uniform comes along with a lot. I hope to God I am ready for this.

So now I need to start living my life without him here. I want to do some scrap booking of the wedding pictures and start walking daily after work (Rocky will love that!). I work at the Natural History Museum so I'll be keeping really busy with the summer camp starting and weekend programs. A lot of my co-workers are naturalist's so I'm hoping they can take me hiking. There is a great hike to the top of the Hollywood sign, I would love to do that! Hopefully I don't pass out during this "active" hobby of mine. I'm a little sensitive to exhaustion!

I can't wait to get another call from him. <3