Bad Timing

Well my husband officially started basic training on Tuesday. I got two letters from him when he was in reception, and luckily two phone calls the day he left for Basic. I miss him like crazy. I hear it takes a few weeks to let things set in but man does it suck not having him here! Welcome to the Army!

Things were going well for a while. I was getting motivated to work out and I started calorie counting again. I was feeling so good about getting healthy and losing weight and then the worst happens...again! Two years ago I was diagnosed with arthritis in my lower back. After months of excruciating pain I had a surgical procedure done that took away most of the pain. I was so happy and relieved. The procedure heats up my nerves to stop them from sending the pain signal to my brain. It was supposed to last 6 month to two years. Well that was two years ago so I guess I had a good run! On Wednesday I started experiencing back pain that I thought was normal everyday arthritis pain and that it would go away. Well the next day it was still there and continuously getting worse. I've been icing it, taking meds, you name it I've been doing it to try to get rid of the pain. The only cure? Lying flat on my back. It's horrible! I've been in bed since Friday and I'm going crazy here!

I finally figured that the pain wont go away until I get another procedure done. I made an appointment with my doctor for next Thursday. Until then, I need to suck it up and deal with it. I cant miss anymore work and I need to keep busy for my sanity! It's horrible timing, just when I was feeling motivated and not depressed about my husband not being here I get hit with this! Just my luck.

I just wish I could get a break and have all the pieces fall into place for once. I'm going to attempt to leave the house tomorrow and try to be productive. I have no idea what I'm going to do if the pain increases. I need to go to work!

I've been writing Wan letters everyday he's been gone and I know he's going to want to know everything that is happening at home. My letters have been inspirational and all that stuff he needs to survive there but I wanted to tell him about my back and that I'm taking care of it. I told him not to worry that I was going to be fine. I have no idea how he's going to take the news but I hope it doesn't affect his progress. He needs to stay completely focused on his training.

I still have no address so I can't send him any of my letters yet, he has no clue what's going on here. That's okay though. He's in red phase and needs to be completely focused. I can't wait to get his address! It'll be so wonderful to have some kind of communication with him.

I miss him so much! I don't have too many people to talk about it with here, facebook has been my emotional outlet lately. It's become an obsessive thing with me, stalking his companies facebook page for updates and pictures and joining Military Spouse groups to read about women missing their soldiers so much they cry every 5 minutes! It's pretty crazy out there in facebook land. I can't wait to see those pictures though. It's going to be so great!

Well there's my pity story for the week. I hope my next post is happier and that I'm still continuing on my journey to be the best person I can be. I cannot wait for this back pain to go away and my husband to be in my arms again. :)

It's not goodbye...

I just got the call...the scripted call telling me that he arrived safely and will call me when he can. These past few days have been hard. I didn't actually cry until last night when we left the hotel he was staying at...this is the first time in years that we have been apart. 5 months is a long time without your other half. So many women before me have done this and I know I'll get through it. It'll just be some getting used to and changing the habit of knowing he will always be there (literally).

I talked to him on the phone all day today, when he was at LAX to when he got to St. Louis. I even got to talk to him on the 2 hour bus ride to FLW. He texted me right before he got there so I was prepared to receive that call. This is so surreal. I cant believe he is there. We have been expecting this for months now and talking about all our plans and for it to be actually happening is a little overwhelming.

I swear to you, I fall in love with him more and more everyday. He makes me a better person and I am so proud to stand by his side. I asked him to see if he can take a picture of him wearing his ACU's. I can't wait to see him in that uniform! Cliche I know, but I always wanted to be with a man in uniform. That uniform comes along with a lot. I hope to God I am ready for this.

So now I need to start living my life without him here. I want to do some scrap booking of the wedding pictures and start walking daily after work (Rocky will love that!). I work at the Natural History Museum so I'll be keeping really busy with the summer camp starting and weekend programs. A lot of my co-workers are naturalist's so I'm hoping they can take me hiking. There is a great hike to the top of the Hollywood sign, I would love to do that! Hopefully I don't pass out during this "active" hobby of mine. I'm a little sensitive to exhaustion!

I can't wait to get another call from him. <3

Army Wife

It's official! I'm an Army Wife! We got married on Sunday, January 30th and I got my military id card the next day. It's been wonderful. Being married is so much better. It's like our love for each other has grown so much more. There's an appreciation there that I never thought we could have. I got really sick this past week and he has been there for me every step of the way. Making me laugh at the doctors office, making me soup (in the microwave of course!), driving me around when I've been too out of it to focus on anything, it's been pretty great having him as my HUSBAND. I love that word now!! Some pictures from our big day...

Everything worked out so great that day. He looked so handsome and my dress fit perfectly. My sister did my hair and makeup and I couldn't have asked for a better look! I'm very happy. :)

We have been trying to spend lots of time together since he will be leaving in 7 days for his OSUT training at Fort Leonard Wood, Missouri. OSUT is another Army acronym that I cant ever remember but it means he will be doing his basic training and job training at the same place. Meaning only one graduation...in 5 months! I'm going to miss him more than words can explain but this will be so good for us. He is starting a career that will take care of us and our future family together. I'm so proud of him. I'll post pictures soon of this whole process.

It's not goodbye, it's see you later....